dancing again and making the big bucks. decent money anyway. it's fun but sometimes you really need to be strong to be around so many beautiful women so that you dont start getting down on yourself. i tried doing some pole tricks the other day but realized that you need a lot of arm strength. i raised myself roughly 2 inches off the ground for 1 second, then came down with a thud only 7 inch heels with over 100 lbs of weight behind them came make. so i decided before i practiced id lift weights or something. no one seems to complain about my dancing so far anyway.
i had nothing better to do @2:49 PM

Monday, August 09, 2004

did lots today. talked to some managers and decided to go back to the club for a bit. hiring a lawyer will make everything lots easier. ive also talked with my landlord instead of running chicken from them like i have been and they're cool. i wrote a post on my birthday so here it is:

If a man says-

I love you, I’ve never felt this way, You’re beautiful, I want to be with you forever, I want to have kids with you, etc

You are most likely having sex.

He’s goes out to a concert on Friday night that we were BOTH supposed to go to and he says he’ll be back in a few hours to get me and we’ll go out together. He leaves at 7:30pm and gets in at 7am. “I got so wasted, babe, I’m sorry.” oh, well shucks, that’s ok!! You’re just a stupid piece of shit and don’t know any better. Come on and lay down next to me. I hope your fucking nostrils close up in your sleep and you choke on your vomit. He slept on the couch, AGAIN.

But enough about dip shits.

I’m writing at 12:30am so it’s technically my birthday!! (he’s out at a bar) I spent 5 hours on Saturday cleaning so that I would get to do nothing but have fun today. Plus, my cat puked last night and I didn’t really clean it so well and I felt kind of bad about the half-assed job I did. And the stairs had dish soap on them in the hopes that he would slip on them when he got in. Plus, when I get the money for a U-haul, it’s gonna be a lot easier to pack up in a few hours while he’s out if everything’s put up where it should be. Less confusion that way. And a ton more for him.

I haven’t really thought at all about what I want to do today. I thought of getting a hair cut cause it’s been forever since I’ve done that. I might go to a park or something and church. I’m still debating over spending my birthday money on myself cause technically I really should pay rent considering that I’ve got another eviction notice that arrived on Friday. I’m thinking of starting at the club again on Monday. I had planned on going in on Friday but the guy I need to talk to wasn’t in. I made a new outfit though and practiced walking in the heels. I’m excited but really nervous, too. What if I don’t get tipped? It’s been 5 months since I’ve done a dance, how will I do? Oh well. I’ve got such bad allergies tonight. I have no idea where all this snot comes from.

i had nothing better to do @5:23 PM